At times I worry I’m not smart enough, not cultured enough and often recognize that I don’t understand myself, that my thoughts are often elusive and vague and so I use the work to help give expression to this, especially to the thought, ‘I’m not sure what I’m doing, but I get the sense it’s worthwhile.’
The work began by using sewing as a way to alleviate the need to create. I soon realized that I was enthralled by the act of creating a stitch and that the process surpassed any visual outcomes that the stitches could achieve. By trying to find a reason behind this I struggled to create work and was distracted by trying to find meaning. This is where I began to realise the elusive quality that thoughts can have and began to accept the fact that I won’t always be able to make sense of my intuitions and musings, and that we are not transparent to ourselves.
Over time and persistence with creating stitches, I began to develop a creative process that has allowed me to keep working. Even if the purpose of the work still eludes me, I keep creating pieces that build an accumulation of stitches as a simple process of haphazard repetition and allows me to stay open to the possibility that through the creation of the work, thoughts will be reimagined and brought back to me in a way that helps better my understanding of what it is I do and why.